My names Dekota but you can call me Dekota. I love music, rain and satan.
jake on queer eye
antoni, pouring a glass of water: pls drink this
tan: a leather jacket… over a hoodie… over a plaid shirt? what’s the inspiration behind this?
jake: bisexuality
jake: so my dad left when i was 7-
karamo, signing adoption papers: i am your father now
jake, already sobbing: not sure how my other gay black work dad will feel about this
bobby: so im gonna renovate ur house, really make the place organized
jake, sweating in adhd: uh not sure how long that will last
jonathan, putting away his razors in shock: wait what do you mean you physically can’t grow one?
holt, bursting through the doors in dramatic gay fashion: who is this ‘karamo brown’ and why are we involved in a custody battle?
(via kunkunbff-deactivated20200723)
girls learn to watch themselves in third person so they can constantly fix their laugh and smile and hair and dancing and speech in hopes they can transform into a different person that someone will love and girls fear that if anyone sees them in their most candid self then they will be deemed unlovable and I’m so exhausted from practicing my smile in the mirror but girls also know that the ability to be loved is synonymous with their worth
It’s always a little unsettling when you catch yourself doing it in a moment—realize you’re seeing yourself from a position detached from yourself, observing yourself to see if you’re performing correctly. And then you realize what you’re doing and there’s almost a sense of vertigo
It’s frustrating to think of how many good moments I didn’t get to enjoy because this phenomena reared it’s ugly head. It’s ingrained in us from such an early age it’s impossible to turn off. Parties, ceremonies, fun social events I’ve been looking forward to; they all get interrupted repeatedly by this sudden sense of “how do I appear? how do the people around me perceive me? what about myself should I ‘fix’ to be perceived better?” The only times I’m able to completely live in the moment are when I’m alone and that has a big impact on happiness
Girls get made fun of for everything might as well do what you want lol
not to be dramatic but this mentality literally freed me
(via aphony-cree)
